ENd, it CaN bE A bEGiNiNG…

I stood there, left with no answers, but with hell lot of questions. I watched her walking away. I realized that it could be the very last moment, very last chance in my life to get her back. But my mind was cluttered with painful emotions. I couldn’t make out which was more painful. Was it the feeling of loosing her made me wordless or was it the pain of a broken dreams made me tongue-tied that time. Relationships that are broken can be fixed but what to do when it get shattered ??

Whom should I blame, me and my decisions or her clarifications??

Live with it?? or Die for it??. Moving on, living painfully , cherishing those moments but still accepting the reality. Or make a couple of step backwards and there is point of no return. I closed my eyes and darkness filled my vision and thoughts. Suddenly it struck my thoughts like a lightening. A flash of white light in my brains. I call it a decision. I took my first step and I realized it was her character and love for me that kept me close to her and then I took my second step and I realized that it was my thirst for her and fantasy of living a life with her put me in dilemma of life and death. I know there is no third step backwards as it will be the end of everything, no regrets and no looks backs. I opened my eyes to get a last glimpse of her. But I couldn’t see her as my eyes were filled with tears. Then I took that step, dreadful, brave, absurd or whatever you may call. I was sure it will be the end of something. I should  accept it. That’s why I believe that was the most audacious three steps forward in my life. Yes I realized, I am no where near to quit myself and no way near to accept my failure. I will fight. I am fighting and will be fighting against the odds. Every situation has a way out and its you who has to find it. As everyone knows there will be an end to all beginnings and from all endings  something new begins…..

MoNEY doES it mEaN PoWeR WithiN

Money does it mean power within. I started feeling so. I have heard lot of stories where people valued self hapiness above money. But when I grew up I realized that money has lot to do with self respect, self realization and many more. Inturn money proved to be a matter of one’s value among the people in this diabolic world.Like many said, “There are certain things in this world money cannot buy”, but rest all needs money. So it is self explanatory that money adds value to your life. Anyone can argue to any extent but our world itself is the biggest evidence for money influencing human lives. Our world has seen so many instances where people earn respect for their money power.

A man who is filthy rich he is powerful. But what about love and relations. Is it the dreadful time that we started thinking money over love and relations. But I am not gonna change my belifs, I am not gonna bent my truths, I am not gonna sink in this stinking relaity. Please let me live through because I have dream to chase and destiny to reach. Let me get there before I get dragged into the pool of lifeless truths.

DiffiCUlt AS it iS, lOVE iS WONdERfUl

Everyone say that love is difficult considering the emotions and feelings that we have to fillin. It demands lot of changes and all of a sudden it can make you a new person.You will undergo many heart breaking moments and will be exposed to heartaches. You will experience pain, pain unlike the ones you’ve experienced before.

Everyone say that once you love, there is no turning back. It is like eating the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden. Once your eyes are opened, you can never close them again. You’d have departed your childish innocence, that fairy tale world where nothing ever goes wrong and nothing ever comes unexpected.

Love is difficult. Why desire it?

You were alone and you have been able to live your life without need of anyone. You spend your nights quietly, with no one to break that sweet silence between you and your God.

When you fall in love, you run the risk of having something, and of losing something. You run the risk of never viewing your nights the same way again.

If you lose the love you have sought, you will lose your quiet evenings, and they will be replaced with sleepless nights. You will always search for what you have lost. You will search for warm arms to embrace you, for sweet lips to kiss you, for gentle words to caress your neck. And who can bear missing such wonderful things?

Is it better therefore to remain as a child who knows nothing? Is it better to be innocent than to broken?

None can judge which is far better than the heart that needs to answer such things for herself.

They say that love is difficult. But it is not easiness that I seek. Life is a struggle in itself. Look where there is no struggle, and all you can see is a world bereft of life and of consciousness.

You can never truly lose anything unless you have possessed something first. You can never grieve of loss less you have possessed something great, something that gave value to your life.

Difficult as it is, love is wonderful, and it is worth all the troubles other people may try to warn you about. Living a full life, risking to lose something wonderful. To love is indeed the one purpose a person desires to live his life for. Life always chooses to be born, to be experienced, and to be aware of the beautiful path we walk upon each day.

dEStINY UNChECkEd!!!!

Sow a thought, and you reap an act; 

Sow an act, and you reap a habit; 

Sow a habit, and you reap a character; 

Sow a character, and you reap a destiny. 

- by Charles Reade

 

What is destiny? To many people it is how they live their lives. They believe that everyone’s life has its own destiny or course. According to Webster’s Dictionary destiny is a predetermined course of events often held to be an irresistible power or agency. (Webster’s Dictionary) In other words our destiny is out fate. It could either be a good thing or a bad thing and to most people it has already been decided by a Supreme Being or God.

 I’ve always been scared of the notion that my actions are already written down on some major blackboard. My mom used to always say that ‘God’ (who doesn’t exist) already has foreseen the next 40 things you do or say. Some people might that think that’s encouraging and that we’re all part of a pattern and at least we’re part of something bigger?  But that is just the pessimistic view on destiny. Others believe that one can decide his or her own destiny. A person just has to know how to control it and become a master of it. I personally believe that one can control his or her own destiny. That is if you strive to do that yourself. If you just live your life expecting that everything will fall in your lap you are wrong.

Nothing in life is pre-destined as in the people you meet, the jobs you get or the person you marry. If that were to be true then everyone would be happy, that is if your destiny is for you to be happy. I think that the notion of destiny is just an excuse that people use for the misfortunes or fortunes that they encounter. During the course of ones life you can began to make your own destiny. 

Some people do believe that certain things are meant to happen as in the people you meet and the person you marry. I don’t think that destiny has anything to do with the person that you fall in love with. For example if everyone in this world was destined to fall in love with someone, and there was a perfect match for everyone, then why don’t people find him or her? Why does divorce happen? Destiny whether it is real or not is not fair. It never seems to work in favor of the person. The very few times that people actually do find their “perfect mate” then the notion of destiny and that they were meant to be together comes up but I just think that is just an excuse for a relationship that works. Another point in a person’s life that people may say that he or she is destined for is their career. The course of your career and who you are in life is all on the person not a predetermined situate. Whether the person applies himself and goes to school and then to college and eventually gets a career on his own is his prerogative. Bill Gates was not destined to be the richest man in the world I believe. I think that he had a dream and the worked hard when he was young to become what he is today. 

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved. 

 

mY bESt fRiENd, StiLl mY bESt fRiENd & WiLl bE mY bESt fRiENd..

I dedicate this blog to best buddy I ever got who is a real lovely person. I am sure that everyone who knows him feel same . Easy to identify him b’coz of his always smiling face. The BIG SMILE which all will remember I am sure. Whom now is a sweet son & a fantastic hubby as we all  call him DhAK.. DhAK… DEEPAK…….

I never knew I found something special when I saw you six years ago. The friendship we had started out weak, but grew strong as time grew old.

Looking back through the years, I can’t believe how long we have been best friends, through good times and bad.

You were always there when I needed someone to share my sorrows  and laugh together. You were always there as a shoulder to lean on and make me feel better when I was down.

You know how true it is, When you know that no matter what happens or goes on down the road,we will always be best friends. So as time passes and days go by,just remember that when you need me, no matter what time or place,I will always be there by your side, my best friend.

If we ever separate, It’ll have to be certain fate. No matter what,you are my best friend. Like chant goes ‘Forever to the end’, you are my very best friend…We may grow apart and  drift away, but I will always remember you as my best friend forever.Always, like the chant goes, Forever ’till the end,You’ll always be my bESt fRiENd.

mEeE & mY dReAMZZzzz-_….

I dream of many things. I have a million dreams, not just one. They grow and branch out as I grow in age and maturity. I at one time dreamt of being a celebrity but when I realized that popularity will not make one a celebrity its our struggle and passion which makes one. I have dreamt of having and being many things. But never have I had a set dream for more than a couple of years.

Dreams are made to be dreamt, but some are allowed the choice of becoming reality. I dream of becoming professional. “A professional of what ? ” you may ask. I do not know for my dream is to find out. I dream that I will be able to go through all of the good times and especially, the hard times in life. I that I will have a life to remember.

I believe that I had found my main dream, the root and origin of all my dreams that surfaced over these years. Though it is old and unused, I can rebuilt it and work my way towards it.

I dream that I will receive what life has in store for me. I dream that I will learn what life can teach me. So these are my dreams and I will chase it down to my life till it achieve it.

tRutHs tHaT nEvER eNdZ.. F:R:I:E:N:D:S

 

I miss her, And she wAs my best friend for A reAlly long time. Hey wAit she still is …. A little poem dedicAted to one of my best friend who is fAr AwAy by presence but close to me with her cAre And Affection.

I miss those times  

I even miss our silly fights 

The making up 

The morning talks 

And those late afternoon walks 

I miss my friend ……

The bond between friends is all the more special because they are not related by blood. Friends are there in every nook and corner of our lives. But do all friendships last a life time? Certainly not. Some of the friends are left behind in the way as we go further and further towards our destination in life.

This does make us sad, but there is not much that can be done about it.  Friends are missed all the time, but the more joyous occasions like birthdays or any other festive occasions make us remember them even more. 

I miss you on your birthday,

Not only for your smile,

But for the piece of me that’s gone,

Left within your care. 

I’m in an empty hallway

And have been for awhile,

Gazing inwardly towards home,

Neither here nor there. 

How quickly we’ve turned distant!

The months pass by like years.

How could friends so inseparable

So soon seem so apart! 

How imprecise the instant

Held hostage by my tears!

Though Time may seem insatiable,

I have you in my heart.

Thank you for your friendship and your love.

However life may turn, this gift will be

A mountain that has made my river bend,

Nor will it flow the same way to the sea.

Years will not this part of me remove.

One lives for just a brief eternity,

Understanding truths that never end.

Wishing my dear friend long life and never ending happiniess and love from her hubby whom I know is a real lovely person.

…

 

LIfE Is aLL AbOUt aMeNdInG MIStakES..!!!!!

All the characters in this story are true image of many in this hopeless world of mistakes. So I dedicate this to all who never thinks of correcting their err and not realizing the fact that it is their life that they’ve to forfeit…..

………………………..Amy married Joe this day. At the end of the wedding party, Amy’s mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount.

Mother: ‘Amy, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there’s something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it’s about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I’ve done the first one for you today. Do the others with Joe.. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you’ve had.’

Amy shared this with Joe when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made.

This was what they did after certain time:

7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for Joe after marriage

1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Amy

20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Huwaeii

15 Apr: $2000, Amy got pregnant

1 Jun: $1000, Joe got promoted

….. and so on…

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn’t talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world…. no more love…Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

One day Amy talked to her Mother: ‘Mom, we can’t stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can’t imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!’

Mother: ‘Sure, girl, that’s no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can’t stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn’t keep any record of such a poor marriage.’

Amy thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home.When she was home, she handed the passbook to Joe, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.

The next day, Joe gave the passbook back to Amy.. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: ‘This is the day I notice how much I’ve loved you thru out all these years. How much happiness you’ve brought me.’

They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life.

“When YoU falL, don’t see tHe place wHeRe yOu felL, inSTead sEE tHe pLace fRom wHere yOu sLipPed. LiFe is about coRRectIng mIStaKes.” 

NeVeR saY ” nO tImE fOR tHinGs ” TiME nEvEr eNDZZzzz!!

Have you heard yourself saying “I wish I had the time for this…” Well, the truth is, however busy you may be, you do have the time. With the hectic mad pace of life, it is easy to waste time that you could have set aside for yourself. I suggest that you take care of the minutes and the hours will take care of themselves or else TIME FLIES….

Put aside 15 minutes every day and do something worthwhile. Do something for yourself. You’ll be amazed what you can achieve in those few minutes set aside every single day.

You can set a 15 minute count down timer for an activity such as do yoga, arrange your cupboard, go for a walk, clear up the papers you don’t need, arrange your clothes, read a book, clean the kitchen, dance, play with your kids, have a hot relaxing shower…. The list is endless. Be creative and think up fun ways to add constructive activity each day to your life for just 15 minutes. This 15 minute fun routine has made a dramatic positive difference in the life of thousands of people. It improves vocabulary to self confidence to finishing off what seemed like cumbersome tasks with ease, improving fitness levels and relationships.

I’m sure you want to know why 15 minutes, why not any lesser or more? There is no clear answer to this. It just seems like 15 minutes is neither too long to get something done nor short enough to be tolerable. Let’s say for example, the hardest part of achieving fitness is taking the first step and making the much needed lifestyle changes. By cutting down an overwhelming goal into 15 minute time slots, it seems so much easier to begin achieving the seemingly difficult tasks. The 15 minute rule need not only be applied to tasks that you need to complete. You can even spend the 15 minutes time to hang out with your kids. Its quality time, you can even read a motivational story to your kids in that time. They will be so delighted and you will know you did the best possible thing with your time.

The best thing is, you can find those 15 minutes at any time of the day, late evening or night. Whatever time fits in your schedule is perfectly fine. You can even use the coffee break at work and go for a quick job, or do some simple stretching exercises especially if you work in a desk bound job. This will relax and loosen your limbs. It can be something as simple as watering the plants early in the morning and thanking God for each new day.

The moment those 15 minutes are up, just stop and see how much you have achieved. And, if you are a lazy slacker like me who leaves everything for tomorrow, you will be amazed how much you accomplish with the 15 minute and rEaliZe the True PoWeR oF TiME.

aRe yOu gOiNg tO tHe gRaVe WiTh uNLiVeD LiVeS iN yOuR VeInS??

“These concerns (for orphan children in India and elsewhere in the world) are very good, but often these same people are not concerned with the millions that are killed by the deliberate decision of their own mothers. And this is what is the greatest destroyer of peace today, Abortion…For the pregnant women who don’t want their children, give them to me.” - Mother Teresa

A real touching words from a women who was a mother to this diabolic world. If we accept that a mother can kill even her own child, how can we tell other people to not kill each other? Any country that accepts abortion is not teaching its people to love, but to use any violence to get what they want. You may have 1000 reasons to justify your devils act but none of them can justify an act which takes a life unless he or she can create it at their wish.

The issue of abortion is one of the most contentious, and emotive dilemmas faced by modern societies. The question is whether one should allow the termination of a child whilst it is in its mother’s womb. For some, the question is even more fundamental: at what stage is the foetus in the womb to be regarded as a child? At conception? At birth? Or, maybe somewhere between. The battle-lines are drawn between strict, religious (‘pro-life’) arguments (that it is never permissible), and those (‘pro-choice’) that emphasise the mother’s right to choose as the primary concern. Yes we believe that a woman has the right to choose what happens to her body and her organs but we don’t believe she has the right to kill another human being to better her life still.

What about the father? What rights does the father have over a fetus? If a mother seeks an abortion, can a father that wants “life” for his child defend it? And, what if the mother wants to give birth to her child, while the father desires an abortion? What say does the father have? Is this, therefore, simply a question of the woman’s rights, or the father’s rights as well?

Moreover what about the Fetus, Is it wrong to assign rights to the fetus? Is it not a person? Is it like wanted fetuses are beloved “babies”; unwanted ones are “tissue” (inconsistent). Life is an individual right, not a privilege, for unborn humans. 

Have you ever thought what would be your answer if your unborn child is questioning your love for child. Will any mother ever say that they don’t like children or they never wanted their beloved. I don’t think so.. THEN WHYYY?? If every feminine life have a self realization and it is by becoming a mother it shows the value of being a mother. Then why some times this MOTHER thing becomes a bother to personal life and why they want to avoid it ??? Hard to give a satisfactory answer HUH??

All human life–from the moment of conception and through all subsequent stages–is sacred, because human life is created in the image and likeness of God.  Nothing surpasses the greatness or dignity of a human person…If a person’s right to life is violated at the moment in which he is first conceived in his mother’s womb, an indirect blow is struck also at the whole moral order. 

All human life–from the moment of conception and through all subsequent stages–is sacred, because human life is created in the image and likeness of God.  Nothing surpasses the 

greatness or dignity of a human person…If a person’s right to life is violated at the moment in 

which he is first conceived in his mother’s womb, an indirect blow is struck also at the whole 

moral order. 

So here there is no conclusion as it’s hard to change the world unless we be the CHANGE… If the anti-abortion movement took a tenth of the energy they put into noisy theatrics and devoted it to improving the lives of children who have been born into lives of poverty, violence, and neglect, they could make a world shine. I’ve noticed that everybody that is for abortion has already been born…………..